I am in fear
There’s this fear of going nowhere slowly
Running around like a headless chicken and not quite moving forward.
There’s this fear of wasted energy, wasted imagination, wasted life.
Yet I can’t stop any of that because if I’m not doing, I’m not trying.
The fear cripples. The fear tastes like failure
The fear envelopes me and all I know is that I don’t know.
This fear is the place from where I function.
This fear won’t tell me what I’m doing wrong
I just know this fear is wrong.
This fear is a part of me
A part I cannot shake
This fear is in part my prison
This fear is in my way
This fear lives on, while I crumble.
This fear is the fear that none of it will end.
This fear isn’t the problem, I am.
I am in fear


